Courage, Squid and an Uncharacteristic Move

I don’t recall how long I stood there. Too long. Perhaps not long enough. Courage is not something that comes naturally to me, and yet there I was, trying to get up the courage to go inside a restaurant I had never been in, in order to meet a man I had never met. Courage. I had it in there somewhere, I just had to dig a little for it. I just needed enough to open a door…

This is not something I normally would have done, and yet, it was all my doing. I placed the personal ad. I responded to a reply. I agreed to meet a stranger. Me, a quiet, timid loner, was about to go on a blind date. What was I thinking? I would have to worry about that later.

I knew him instantly. He was sitting all alone, not too far from the door. A white shirt, black vest. Handsome. I started walking his direction and he stood up. Tall, confident. He was a perfect gentleman, kind, sweet, funny. As conversations usually do when I am involved, it moved slowly. I never know what to say, but this didn’t seem to bother him one bit. He filled in the gaps with stories and questions.

As the evening went on, I nervously drank white wine and ate calamari. Squid. I ate squid.

That was 13 years ago today.

I am not sure what made him come back, but he did. Over and over. Even when I thought I had scared him away for good, he came back, until nothing seemed more natural than being together. Until neither one of us could remember a time without the other. Until forever couldn’t possibly be long enough.

Our life together has been an amazing adventure, full of ups and downs and sharp right turns. We went from not planning on having kids to having three. We have struggled to find our meaning, our purpose, our direction in life, but the years together have taught us what really matters, how strong our bond is, and how everything does, in fact, happen for a reason. Our thoughts and plans have changed, but our bond never has. Every day brings us closer together, more dedicated. We still have a lot to learn and experience, but we will do it side by side. Together. Always.

A blind date, a little courage, and Rob. For these I will be forever grateful.

We still laugh about the squid…